It’s my diet blog so that I can keep track and update what I ate, what I did for exercise, how much I weigh and how much I loose.

I will post photos of things that have something to do with diet, exercise and healthy food. I will also post few photos of my naked stomach, I’m not proud of it, but I will be proud of when one-day I loose the amount of weight I plan I will be proud. (If you are disgusted by this that is fine), I will take on some advice, if anyone would like to suggest recipes for food as well. I would love the support because this time I will not give up.

So if you’d like to help me or support me with my diet please follow taylahsnewyearbeginshere @ tumblr.

I don’t want non supporters following, I already.know I’m larger, unfit, and disgusting looking and ugly. Don’t need to be told twice. :-)

Thank you. X

I haven’t written on this is in a long while, guess it’s time I made an effort to do an update.

My life’s been absolute shit, not much of an update but I decided not to dwell on it or even complain, because as shit as it is… I’m pretty content with my life and I couldn’t expect much more for myself. I still may not have a job, a boyfriend, or be living by myself or go out partying wasting the money I do have in my course, but I have a family a very disfunctional one, a roof over my head, food in my tummy and a beautiful dog I get to cuddle up to every night. It may not be the best thing in the world but it is for me.

I have also lost a few “friends”. Not sure how that goes but after all the months/years I worry that I’m a shit friend, I’m starting to realise that they were the shit ones. When am I ever going to find true friends? People = Shit.

I am also now seeing a psychologist, will be seeing her once a month for 10 months. She’s very lovely and has a sense of humor so I am sure the progress for moving forward will be great. For the next month my goals are to..

- walk ten minutes a day.
- keep a food diary. (What I ate that day and what I could do better the next day).
- a frustration journal (what happened, what did I do, on a scale of 1-10 how angry was I).
- my attitude
- and my behavior (which also comes in under the frustration part).

I’m not crazy, lol.

A couple weeks ago I started to read 50 Shades of Grey, I finished it in 3 days, read the second book in 1 day and the 3rd in 2 days. Those books are amazing.

I’ve also started to read a book called Lethal by Sandra Brown & then I’ll read The Haunting by Alan Titchmarsh, until I can buy the book Bared To You. :D

So there’s my life in a nutshell, all the same as it was before, still alone.

Got kicked out of home.
Had to live with my cousins
For 2 weeks I was sleeping on the couch.
For the last week I finally got a bed in trents room.
This morning and yesterday morning my cousins had a go at me for no reason just cause he wakes up in a foul mood.

Need my own place, need a job, need out.

And all I see throughout these warehousing ones are (you have to be physically fit), I’m sorry, I didn’t know that being fat meant you’re not a hard worker, or can’t lift 5-20kg.

Fuck you, seriously.
Whoever hires me will be one lucky company, because I will work my fucking ass off!

I think it finally realised, I deserve something good.

For the last few months I’ve been using oasis and have not met one person. Next Saturday, I’ll be meeting a really cute guy.

He’s not a Scorpio either, he’s a Capricorn. We get a long super well, and he’s amazing.

I am super keen to get cuddles and watch tv shows/anime and hang out. ^______^, life please give me an amazing boyfie.

Thanks, means a lot.